The journey to this place can take months, years or even an entire lifetime. Worn out and deflated as you look back at all of your trials & triumphs that led to this moment; your soul beings to speak – crying out for release. You seek rest. You seek resolve. You seek rest.
It’s only when we come to the end of ourselves do we realize how powerless we truly are in the grand scheme of things that matter the most. In our health, our relationships and the love we hold so dear for others with all of the battles we’ve endured in trying to do the right thing and make the right decisions, we wonder, “How did I end up in this place?”
When you’ve tried everything and there are no more ideas, solutions or doors to knock down, you seek the spark.
It’s not a conscious decision, it’s a deep soul cry for help from a power greater than you. It’s a spark of the soul when it looks up and receives a spark from God.
Powerless in all of your strength that’s come to an end…,
To be touched by God is likened to a being hit by a bolt of lightening. The mind shifts, the ego is confused & all that once shimmered in this world no longer shines in the same way. The soul knows now there is something far greater than chasing after the things of this world.
Love begins to take over as previous felt notions of judgement, division and separation amongst people feel foreign to you. No longer do you understand historical wars, racism, hatred or the perception of power in a world where humans are all powerless as you’ve learned to be the truth.
You no longer follow tradition, no longer put experts in a thing on pedestals and you no longer feel the desire to fight with anyone. You know what love is. You’ve felt it’s connection, if only for a brief moment in the envelope of it’s essence.
This is where you surrender to love. You no longer wish to control anything or war against anything and even your own life, as you knew it before seems like a mis-step in how you forced your way into acts of being and doing that profited you nothing in the interior spaces of your soul. Likewise, this is where you begin to feel the separation from the world – finding it difficult to take part in gossip, slander, fear-based conversations and ego based pursuits.
In the solitude you find your center – speaking the matters of your heart to a higher realm of wisdom and asking for guidance from the only place that truly has the answers you seek.
Connection becomes a mainstay. You surrender your hopes, dreams, troubles and your need to know as a child that asks her father to handle the heavy lifting of this world on her behalf.
In this stage you begin to realize that there is an author on high – a script writer in the sky who has a plan that may not align with the plans you made for your life. Through prayer & surrender you become aware of the synchronicities in your path and the miracles found every moment.
And like a child, stepping into DisneyLand for the first time, each day becomes a gift of new discoveries – not in the sense of the worldly excitements but in the knowing that you are being changed and transformed on the inside. Asked each day to die more to the person you once thought to be you, you’re aligned more with the soul you’ve always been in the light of God’s grace and creative design.
This is a space of layers torn away and all of the shadows that made up the definition of an identity given to you by an outside world that has no idea what God created you to be, falls away piece by piece. You lose yourself as the ego wars against the spirit. But on the other side of the pain, loss and the void that acts as a tunnel from the false light leading you to the true light of life, you are reborn.
In the prayer, the surrender and the TRUST that has replaced the shifting concept of belief, you enter into reception. No worry. No Fight. No Expectation. You look to the Father of Lights with a knowing that you are loved, protected and aligned with His perfect will. You begin to know that all things are working for your good and the worst, darkest parts of your journey were the very detours and doorways that were leading you home.